| Mathilda Kiara ♔ | ||
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Hey. I'm Mathilda Putri. But preferred as Mathilda Kiara :) 14. Mixed blood. What you see is what you get, I'm only my true self to those I trust. I sing. I rap. I fell in love with a dancer who won't give me a chance. Huge fan of New Boyz and NCredible Wonder Broz. So if you hate them, fuck off. I'm also a fan of Skins UK. Theresian. Isabel House Cheerleader. Peace, Love & Ice Cream.  I'm a Gryffindor! |
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Monday, June 28, 2010 |
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 and when you see me, you turn away and walk the other direction... okayy..so...over the weekend I slept over at shana's house. FUN FUN FUN!!! Haha. Became fat I think. Ate a lot. Went to Shop And Save a lot. Watched a lot of TV. shana did up her blog for who knows what reason. I got addicted to a new song which is my blog song:) Thats right. Diary by Tino Coury. A really sad sad sad song. Look on the bright side, TINO COURY IS HOT! Haha! Crazy crazy crazy. We did our usuals, laughing! We talked and saw pictures of Colin Farrel. I still like Taylor Lautner's body! Haha. But Colin Farrel is hot, in a way. shana was so FICKLE (she says it) with her blogskin. I think she used like, three main blogskin and tons of others just for colors and all. Haish. She used the third and last main blog. Haha. We ate Oreo biscuits, PEZ sweetz, wafer biscuits:)) I love her because..well..she's awesome and she's CRAZYY!! Oh wait, so am I! Haha. Today was the first day of school. Damn. I brought my racket to school, but there was no training. Our training is tomorrow. Lucikly! I didn't have any cash on me and I would have died of starvation on the courts! Haha. My prepaid card is expired and therefore I cannot text shana. Haii...since I had no cash, I couldn't get what I wanted for the week: 9degrees drink, icing, PEZ sweets refill, magnum gold. Magnum gold is like, EXPENSIVE! Its like 5bucks shana said. Haii...baby steps.baby steps.. Haha. I want my 9degrees drink, icing and PEZ sweets refill THE MOST. magnum gold must wait. shana says there's caramel. Me loveyy:))) Haha. Its so late? Haish. I'm so hungry. I don't like our new maid. She's so...violent with granny and she does work like, kindof incomplete. Wth? Haish. okays. got a message for bestfiie (I heard they're calling him RIKAL now. Because its Sha'Riq Haikal. get it? nice but wierd. bestfiie sounds better!) Its been hard enough for me. But what I don't understand is why you did what you did. And all you left me with was HURT, PAIN, WEAKNESS and MEMORIES. You know I'll always have your back. How come it feels like you don't have mine? When I told you that I wasn't over amie, you said,"We'll still be besties, just not the same." and now it doesn't even feel like that. You don't even act like a friend, the least. The one who's had my back, talks to me, listens to me and tries so hard to talk to you is afiq. Why? Its true that when you went away for that one week the bond between me and afiq is better, closer, tighter, stronger but he's not the one who's seen me cry, who's been there like you have. He's got too many problems. So does arep. So does shaqil. Even jordan isn't texting me late at night anymore. "Too busy, sorry," they all say. Now you're suddenly busy also? I know you're not, okay. But do you, of all people, you, want to see me HELPLESS, UNLOVED and ALONE? Do you? I don't even know what you want me to do because you're not talking to me. Right now, my prepaid's expired. Its not that I gave up on calling and texting you. I don't want to say goodbye to this friendship because when I'm with you, I can be myself. That's the best feeling in the world. I can talk, laugh, cry, scream, shout and more. And its because our friendship grows stronger with every moment we spend together. So I just can't let go of that so easily. I love you, bestfiie. I hope you realize its true before its too late. Just remember this: Every step we take together is a million steps alone, we can take this friendship far and let it last long. Rikal☮ mathildaa:D |
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Monday, June 21, 2010 |
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 that's my future cap:) helloo:)) anyways, todayy is Monday! gonna go watch Real World: DC at 11 later on so Imma blog first aytee? wokeyys well, on Saturday, Shana slept over at my house. then we talked a lot. watched a lot of Raja Lawak:)) funny man! Haha. at the hospital we were bored. like seriously. ate and drank. we laugh like, A LOT. then saw stuff on google. the Bohemian style that Shana likes and I looked at some sundresses. Honestly, I think I'm slowly becoming a girl! Haha! Since when do I look at DRESSES? huh? huh? Haha! Currently the match over in South Africa is Chile-Switzerland. A LOT OF YELLOW CARDS, MAN! But still, the scores are, ZILCH. Haha. Portugal-North Korea is 7-0. Apparently, Gatsby (Christiano Ronaldo) has got is world cup "spirit" back. But I still prefer Argentina:)) Won all their matches. I heard that you can watch world cup in Macs. One day, I will run away to Macs to watch world cup:))) Heheheee... crazy me. and now I wanna tell you guys something. LET'S BIN IT! Seriously, tghe flood in Orchard Road? A shedload of trash clogged up this big sewer thing and, poor Starbucks!, flood. Whoosh! Eh cool, Eclipse come out next week:) I feel like watching (what? I wanna see Talyor Lautner's abs:DD) I bet he'll take his shirt off! Like, duh! Hahaaaaaaaaaa!!! Funny me:)) Wokeyys...time's up. I gotta jet, loves! Nights y'all! I know your life can go on without me, that you can survive without me, that you can be happy without me. But even if you turn me away, I will still choose to stay with you and be your nicest stranger forever. Is it undenied love or unadmitted? I don't know. But then, what if you do? Amie Jeffry ♥ mathildaa:D
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Thursday, June 17, 2010 |
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 Good day peeps:)) Actually, not so good for me. I'm pissed, mad and crying. In short (or long), here it is: (She = MOM) This morning, I got up at 11:30. The phone rang. She asked,"You showered yet?" And I said,"No, I just got up." Then she said,"Go bathe, then jemor kain baju then send atok food to uda's house." She didn't even ask if I take panadol already or if I'm still having fever or what's my temperature or if its okay. Like, wth?! Then I looked out of the ... See Morewindow, it was like, F*CKING HOT. ANd she ask me to walk! Having fever, then walk in the sun? I get heatstroke then she know. I did everything she asked me to. Then when we came back from uda's house, she asked me to carry the groceries. I carried. I was tired. I was wheezing. But I still caried. And then when we got home she said,"Semua tak buat!" Then in my mind I was like,"TAK BUAT?! WTH?! I did everything you asked me to and yet you say I never?" Then even though I was crying, I went to the bloody kitchen to put back the bloody housekeys and she asked me,"Nak makan?" WTH? The way to a good sleep is not a good dinner but a good breakfast. It was way past my dinnertime. Even though I was hungry, I said no. Even though I was bloody pissed and angry and crying, I said no. Because even if I did something, I know nothing's gonna change. Then here's what I put on Facebook: I know, you don't give second glances to sick people. Not even me. How come other people can understand, and you can't? Don't you know that makes me cry? I know, I'm not your son. I'm not your son or cat. I'm just sitting at home do everything you say even though I have asthma and fever. "Tell me, where do I go from he...re?" I know no one's gonna answer me. Ibu, I love you bcos you've cared and done so much for me. ♥ I feel like running away from home. But where will I run to? Who will I run to? To what will I run to that will keep me? And until when will I be running away? All that I don't know. I feel like staying at Mama's house until holidays are over because, I can watch world cup, I can talk to Nelly and Dhiya, I know Mama will accept and Rahmanie won't object. I'll have peace and quiet. Its like, I donnoe. Right now, even though Bestfiie's pissed at me, Nelly and (OhMyGod!) the pig (Yes, imma still call him that. look at the state of his room! Jeez.) are telling me to relax. Honestly, I just wanna get outta this house and have fun, let loose for one day to do that. Anyway, less feeling... I deleted my MySpace account. Why? Because I hate it:) My Facebook is like, bitching. Haha. I try update by text but it doesn't work anymore. Aahhh...Damn... Twitter works though. Okay, I am HUNGRY. Heheh. Gotta jet. Buhbuyee!! Do you know that the last time my heart raced was when I fell in love with you? When first saw you? When I was with you? Where are you? You didn't see that my heart was racing so quickly? I love you. And I want you to know that. Please. Please. Please see that. Amie Jeffry ♥ mathildaa:D
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Thursday, June 10, 2010 |
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Can I take you home with me? Heyo! Today started lazy and ends fucked up:) Be happy to read ayes? I got up at nine plus. Then ate. Then went back to sleep. Then slept until eleven plus. Then bathed. Then watched a lot of tv. At four plus, Sabrina came. Then talked until six thirty. Then bathed. Then ate. Then talked and laughed and fooled around in the kitchen a lot. Then wanted to watch Crows Zero 2 in the pig's bedroom. So we did. Then I was sitting on the parapet. Then went to check on my computer which baba kassim was fixing (which is how I'm able to use it now). Then went back to take my phone and continue watching. Then the bitch (stepsister no. 2) was sitting at where I sat earlier. Then I told her to move, she moved like, 2cm. In my mind, I was like,"Sheesh, you so fat you can't carry your own freaking body? Move like 5inches and STAY AWAY." So I asked her to move again like 3times. Then when I wanted to sit, she moved back. WTF?! Then I was like,"I wanna sit la!" Then she ignore me. Then the pig was like,"Shut up la!" Then I was like,"I wanna sit right!" Then he was like,"I don't care. This is my room." Then I shouted,"Then you can anyhow come inside my room, la!" Then I pushed his chair and slammed the door on the way out. Then I went to the kitchen and watched tv. My mind was like, FIRED UP. Then baba kassim told me the computer was okay already. So then I came in to use. And here I am typing after re-doing the blogskin and everything. Updating Twitter and Facebook. Happy things: 1. going back kampung SOON! 2. Bestfiie's back!!! 3. its Samantha's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA:DD Haha. Get that outta the way. I got loads to tell Bestfiie, and loads of pictures to upload. But sadly, I don't have a zinger where the USB cable for the camera is. How to upload?? While sery (stepsister no. 1) was here, I wasn't bored. She left early Tueasday morning and everyday became lazy. Damn. I camwhored like, a lot! Haha. I wanna say this to the bitch: You can take away my godsister, I've got loads of sisters to back me up. But you can never EVER take my godfamily or my BigBro (Daniel a.k.a. Jack Daniel:DD) from me. Watch what the fuck you're doing, bitch. I'm like fucking hungry now. Damn la. This is why I don't frequently make the 11:11 or 12:34 because I'm busy doing something else. Like, Damnn la.. I could REALLY use a wish right now. Bestfiie!! TEXT ME!! NOW!! AFIQ! JORDAN! SHAQIL! ANYBODY!!!!!!!!!! Just text me. NOW. Please? I'm a loser. Dammit. Nevermind. I shall go to bed now. Besfiie, ily. Text me soon ayte? Got loads to tell you, And I been missing you. Mathilda:)
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Saturday, June 5, 2010 |
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Hey. I haven't posted in a VERY LONG time. Hahah. Been super busy. Spent a lot of time with Bestfiie:) and the Perak trip was just plain SCARYYY!! Anywyay, 1st week of YOG training for June is over! Two weeks of rest and one more week then school begins. Aww... I haven't even started my holiday homework. Ah, freak it. Anyway...Bestfiie has gone to Penang. Sad. He's coming back on Thursday so that's a lot of time to kill ayes. Getting my BCG on Monday. Unless my test injection triggers my baby BCG then I don't needa take the BCG. I wish Bestfiie didn't go Penang then he could have accompanied me to Novena for my injection on Monday. Ugh. Wanna go Bugis laa... Last night texted Jordan until 4.30am then texted Shaqil in the morning for a bit. Oh, HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY LIYANAAAAA!!! Muahahahah... She gets to go Swensen's for her birthday. Cool aye? She actually ajak me! But its because all her girlfriends going. Shuanah, Khalisah all... Nah... Not y scene. No homeys): Ahaha. I feel so bored just staying at home. Seriously. My Twitter is VERY ALIVE and Facebook also. Haha. Only Blog died. Haha. REVIVE BLOGGY!!! Hahah. We have that freaking PDP project to do. Which I won't do because, I mwan, how different are we from the other classes? Really! Anyways... I wanna go out!!! MOM!!! I'M FREAKING BOREDD!!! Sery wanna go Bugis also what... So why don't me and her go? Sheesh. Just gimme some cash and a curfew and I'll be outta the house in no time! Hehehe! HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY FADHILAH!!!!!! Hahaha! Her birthday also today. Ugh... BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! Get me outta here!! See ya! -Mathilda:) |
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