Hey :)

I'm sitting here on my bed, exhausted from life yet so addicted to internet HAHA. Fangirling at every chance I get, I'm just dedicated like that. But I basically wasted my weekend so that's what I'm here to rant about today.

Saturday I got up at 8.40am and had tuition. I yawned like three times in the 2 hours and I remember everything I learnt so thank God I slept a lot on Friday so my 4 hour sleep wasn't so bad. I slept at sometime past 4 after after texting syaz (thanks man!) and thinking about everything. But idk, something triggered me and I was in a bad mood for that day. So when we went visiting I just sat in the car listening to my Eminem. And then I thought about a lot of things and then I started thinking about dad. And how it was September. Y'see, 21st September is daddy's death anniversary. A decade. It has been a decade without him and I miss him dearly day by day. As a kid, I used to make my birthday wishes and I didn't wish for new things like other kids, I wished to see my dad once again, and hear him wish me happy birthday and hug me and tell me he loved me. Wishful thinking? Well yeah. Every year for ten years, same wish. I don;t think I'll ever stop. Oh well. I'm not gonna stop. So anyway, back to my weekend, so I just sat there like really depressed and cried a little. Then ate a lot at Toksu's house and went off to Uda's place and I just sat there thinking then I started crying. Like a lot. Then at Uda's house I slept. And then the kids were noisy so I kinda woke up but just lay there thinking. Then we left some five minutes after Uncle got back, apparently his father passed away without him knowing, so my prayers go out to him ♥ Then sat in the car listening to the same song again, "When I'm Gone" by Eminem. I am really sensitive to it so I most probably will cry when I hear it over and over again once again (make sense? :/ ) so then I cried again and I couldn't take wiping away the tears so I just made some really loud sniffs and said I had a runny nose. I don't think anyone bought it and I think my brother knew I was crying, hm. So, thrice right? Then went home and grabbed clothes. Then headed to Malaysia. Went to Tok Andak's house then to kakyu's house at JP Perdana which they were moving into because their flat got broken into thrice. Wow, right? Yeah. I really wanted to go home so I could go for tuition and tennis the next day but mom and papa claimed they were too tired. -.- So we watched this Merong movie which was really cool and historical, oh and mom fell asleep along with ibu, my brother, daniel and angah (towards the end). Then we watched Flat 3A which I have to say was confusing yet really cool and really awesome. And mom woke up for that. After that me and kakyu talked for some ten minutes and she fell asleep and so did I. But an hour later I was awoken by hysterical laughing caused by mom and papa. And I was like,"Wtf? You can stay up and watch 3 movies but can't drive home for my academics? Monkey crap." I didn't say it out loud obviously. Then I got frustrated and slept.

I woke at 9.10am but got up and 9.30am. Then moped around for a bit. Then had breakfast. Then had a shower. Then moped around some more. The helped kakyu move more things from the flat to the terrace house. Settled the stuff in. Kakyu did my hair. Talked, moped around. Boys bought pizza. Went to fetch Sufi at Seri Alam. Listened to them talk about college and stuff then left after awhile. Fell asleep in the car. Got back to JP Perdana then left like ten minutes later. Had a shower the moment I got back. Then went online after mom yelled at my brother about his shitty results. Thank God for my As and Bs. Then went to shop and save like some time after papa left for work and *BOOM* here I am doing this. Y'know, I have training tomorrow. I'm not in the mood to go though. Someone give me motivation like, wth. Do you know how lazy I have been? AHAH. I have become so fucking lazy and so fucking attatched to the internet, the 30 hours of no internet for me was nearly suicidal. not even kidding. I couldn't even use sgBeat to tweet for goodness sakes! HAHA. Then again I am an antisocial bitch fanigirl directioner blah de blah de blah. Waiting for like 3am before heading to bed. I'm thinking. There's this girl, she's having this competition where you can win the really cool One Direction wristband and I WANT IT. I have never in my life won a Tumblr competition. I want either the wristband or posters. Tryna see if Farah can get me the Fabulous or Top of The Pops or Tatler magazine. Its got One Direction stuff in it. I want their posters on my wall. Like what the hell. Okay I'm bored now. So bye :) You're my wonderwall.