| Mathilda Kiara ♔ | ||
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Hey. I'm Mathilda Putri. But preferred as Mathilda Kiara :) 14. Mixed blood. What you see is what you get, I'm only my true self to those I trust. I sing. I rap. I fell in love with a dancer who won't give me a chance. Huge fan of New Boyz and NCredible Wonder Broz. So if you hate them, fuck off. I'm also a fan of Skins UK. Theresian. Isabel House Cheerleader. Peace, Love & Ice Cream.  I'm a Gryffindor! |
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Friday, April 23, 2010 |
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Oh, the time has come, for my dreams to be heard. They will not be pushed aside and turned. Heyhey! Whazzup? Imma use my last chances of VULGARITIES!! Eh? No lah! Today freelance! Be prepared yo! I felt kinda loved today, by Alexis, Maria, Kerena, Amelia& WeiQian! Hema didn't come to school today. Sadded, WeiQian didn't have a partner for 54321. I listened to music a LOT today. During IT! English! Recess! Maths! Awesome! Haha. I should get more Snoop Dogg songs. I mean, my faves are like T-pain& Snoop right? Oh, I fell asleep during English again! Haha. I listen music, lay my head on the table and knocked out for half an hour! And then went to canteen. We didn't taxi to SP. Took MRT. Bought Gulp& Cup Noodles at 7-E. Then me, WeiQian& Myint Myat sat at the Food Court to eat. Then like, 5 mins late for training. Then uh..Oh! New cooach! Coach Matt. Cool eh? I think he from Kallang there. Did drills, learned theory, I'm what? The new role model? Haha. Used to be Isabella. But thats for Coach Timothy. So, YAY ME! Played games. Then dismissed. Then walked to the MRT station. Texted BigSis and apparently, we kinda fought. Its like this: Me: So you coming my house tonight? BigSis: I'm working uhs. Me: Tomorrow? BigSis: Work. Me: So I see your promises really mean A LOT, huh? At least Nelly& Dhiya bother to come. They visit nenek and at least try and find out if I'm okay or not. You come once a month. This weekend maybe celebrating my birthday. Bet you don't care about that either. BigSis: I'm not trying to be rude or wanna be rude to you. You're not in my shoes and you don't know what's going on in my family and personal life. I'm not buzzing you off but thank you for making me realise. You just takkaire of yourself. If you think I ain't that good to be someone who can lead you to the right way, we still have loads of other cousins you think is the best then its your choice. I'm just here to hear you out and guide you. but I have a life which I have to settle first.. Me: Fine. Then I guess I just don't mean that much anymore. Have a nice life. BigSis: I didn't even say I don't care about you.. Come on, I have problems to settle in life too okay. Its not like I wanna fight or anything. You're not in the age or situation to go through this yet.. I'll text you soon. I'm at work. Me:Yeah. Its all you do. Work. Just so you know, you're not the only one breaking promises, breaking my heart. Turning thirteen is a big thing to me. Maybe not to anyone else I suppose. Forget about texting me back. I have better things to do than fight. I rather study for my SA1. Well, here's what I wanna say: If only you knew how many people have broken their promises, are breaking my heart. My birthday is one of those times in the year that brings a REAL SMILE to my face. I guess it don't mean much to you. I may not know how to put myself in your shoes. But thats 'cause I'm younger than you. How about if you were me? Guess you wouldn't know how it feels either. Work? Its all you really do. A sister is supposed to care. Supposed to share. If you think you can't cope with the problems then why don't you ever share therm with me? Ease it off? Why? I know! I'm still young. I won't understand. Well, you weren't the one in my shoes. Please, I've dealt worse. I have temperamental problems. I need anger management. I'm dealing with that. I'm a monster with food. Who else knows me better than you? No one. Now you're so caught up with school, work, family, friends, boyfriend you just can't find the time for me? Please. Nelly is the same. But she finds time for me. We don't even behave like sisters anymore. What about girls night. You're bailing on us the second time because of work? You can go to work from my place! It ain't that far. Somehow I think its just the lies all over again. The same deceiving, manipulation. Do you know that I feel hurt when people bail on me? I feel like I haven't done enough to please them or I'm simply not good enough for them. Nelly& Dhiya. They came last weekend. They come not just for nenek, atok& because they know I need them. They come because they need some peace and quiet. Away from all the rowdiness at Woodlands. Nelly stayed over Monday& Tuesday night. She would rather LIVE at my place because its NEARER to school. And we share& laugh more together. As we grow older, we change. When we change, so do out personalities, friends, likes& dislikes. She stays over so we can all get to know each other. I don't feel like I know you anymore. I tears me up inside. One weekend won't do any harm. Can't you just try? Because, turning thirteen for me means being a year older, respectable, responsible, committed, compassionate, honest and definitely more conscience. I need my motivators beside me when I become thirteen. So that I know they won't give up on me. They WILL continue to inspire me. Will you? Well thats all I really gotta say. Um. Seeya. PEACEOUT:D MathildaPutri<3
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